one year. almost one year since i have written anything here on my blog. a lot has changed and yet i still find myself mulling over the questions of God's goodness and what it means to be truly loved and transformed by it. my studies this year have given me much more sophisticated language with which to approach these topics but these are still on my mind. I believe that God is good but now I'm trying to figure out how to allow that to penetrate my heart.

interesting that i wrote in March about God's goodness and then I was to sit down in a class in September where the first thing the prof said was, "God is good....he is not out to get us. He is, at the very core of his being, good and he has our best interests at heart. It is when we forget about God's goodness that we grow suspicious of him. But if the Old Testament is to make any sense we have to be rooted and grounded in the fact that God is good."

i was surprised to see that i occasionally had people reading my blog, looking at my statistics. I remember when we all liked blogs, when they were our chance to say something meaningful or to exercise our creative writing skills long lost after elementary school. our skills have been restrained and twisted into writing position papers and reflective essays. it was an outpouring of a place where we could use personal pronouns and pretend that our thoughts and opinions mattered when our profs at university didn't think they did. so, i'm not sure if i'm reviving my blog or not but it feels nice to write to someone out there, it feels nice to have an opinion that does not have to be supported in the church tradition or the latest theological book. and yes...i did use the word nice...grad students are supposed to use bigger and more descriptive words but for now i will stick with "nice".